I miss you very much but do you know about that . I doubt that as we barely know each other and if only we introduce to each other or became friends thats possible can be happen .

It was just my hopeful wish , isnt it ? Liking you is one thing ? Having a small crush on you is one thing ? What will happen if I approach you and whats gonna happen ?

I cant possible predict the future , cant I ? I can always approach for someone but not for myself as Im too afraid to do so . Dont asked me why .

But Im really lucky as I know where you worked at and I can go there with anyone I like but you cant say that Im a stalker as before you work there , its always been my fave place so ... yes , you cant call me that as its unfair .

Flamingo Chew , is that your english name or just for fun ?

Then can I name myself as Bella Chew , how's that gonna sounds like ?

As if I'm Chinese Malay like that , like that oso can right ?

But it sounds as if we are siblings like you mom is chinese while your dad is malay but for me will be dad is chinese and mom is malay ?

I have no idea what leads me to the school library but my feets and my mind was the one who lead me here and I've been spending my time here for 4 hours without break and keep playing the computer and think nothing . Just wasting my time here as if I've no life like that and indeed I have no life . All thanks to someone .

My instinct told me that hes not attached but someone said that hes attached and now I supposed to be sad of him being atttached instead I'm not crying at all like Im living my life like normally as if nothing has happen to me . At first , I was shocking that I couldnt believe that hes actually attached and that didnt get inside my head .

Every night , I keep complaining not being able to see you . What do I do when you're around ? I dont give a damn to it but not when you're no longer around me , I keep looking around when I know I will never get to see you until next year . If I know when you are seating down all alone , are you waiting for someone to approach you but if it was me , I'm scared to approach you as I thought you would be a typical person that once a girl beside you would walk away and end up I didnt approach you at all .

Are you seriously not gonna accept my friend request ? Will you just get over it ? If you dont like me , say it to my face rather than playing these kind of mind games as I dislike it so much . If a girl that you like is playing mind games with you , do you enjoyed that or do you dislike it ? Or do you enjoyed it so much that you forgave her for playing mind games with you ?

Here am I waiting and sitting down at Library where this is your fave place . Your fave place and it has already became my fave as the first time I met you was here and it was love at first sight . I keep complaining that I want you to be right here with me and if you were attached me and sees me smoking , I want you to be the one gripped my wrist tightly and talk some sense with me so that I will stopped smoking .

Are you the one for me ? I cant really find any answer for you as you are not with me . If only Im related to you by your friends or my friends maybe we will hang out with each other but things will not always go my way . I always thought from the moment I like you , I thought to myself whether you're my Mr Right or not

I dont know what I want for my life and for my happiness .
Will I ever get Mikhail Ashraf in my life ? Will we be together ?

I wont make you in a tight spot but I want the best for you even though you doesnt know whether I exist in your world or not . In time to come , maybe you will know my existence in your life . Even if your friends are giving me this weird and unfriendly look but I dont mind as long as Im concern I like you and I shouldnt care much whether they are giving me weird look , I dont care at all if worst come to worst if you give me the same look as them , I got nothing say to you .

A miracle has happen earlier on as what I've wish in the morning hoping that I'll get to see Mikhail at forum and coincidentally I happen to see him when I skipped my class and I was stunned and shocked for a minute as I couldnt believe it at all .

A miracle that change everything that I think and its good .

Besides , today is really a JACKPOT that I saw Mikhail , Sed and Alexander.

Its like package that I happen to see them as if I feel very lucky today maybe today is just my lucky day !!