Its been ages that ive last updated bout my life .

As usual , it has been boring all day long. Nothing better things to do at all .

School is back to normal , I guess . But , I still have the fear of seeing that miget . hah. how mean . shouldnt say that and is she still remember my URL , Im so dead meat and she'll totally tease me here and there . Ooopsy , should have known to stop talking boout it as the moment she appear before me , my mood will automatically change so i'll just stop at here.

Whats the use of searching for the guy's fb when you used to like but now you no longer liking him and its such a waste of time ? really waste of time and thats what Im doing right now , and I feel annoying when I keep calling him "dier" , "dear" and also "deer" . end up , i make up a name that his name is "danial" and i guess his the kind of person that suits the name called "danial" so i guess i'll be not searching his fb as in stalking him or whatever .

By 13 April 2011, I'll make sure that Im matured enough to handle things and also my well-being. I must be mature as that's my checklist for the year .

What can I do to make you be mine ? Love is selfish things at times . Sometimes , you wont know what you are actually doing and when people starts to point things out to you , you will then realise that you're being selfish . At times , I cant deny that Im being like that too but Im also a human being , doesnt that makes sense too ? So , there are times that Im also like that too .

I used to be someone to advise about love stuff but it seems Im no longer interested in it at all . It seems to be so boring and common . I want to aim something in my life . Maybe aim something that I wanted . The fact is that Im also confused w/ what I want in my life . Relationship can comes on the later part , firstly , I want a stable career and income . To live on your own w/o owing anyone's money . I got to clear my debts to my friends and also my family .

I already took one step that is being independent for 6 years and that already good enough to be independent girl at such a young age w/o any guy interrupting in my life . Im considered happy w/ my life already and the next thing is that I have to develop something that I want .

Hey , its been ages that Ive last post and now here Im back . been busy watching korean stuff as usual . tomorrow is the big day , i mean that sounds so weird -_________- i mean tomorrow is the day i start my school and its my second year or even last year . Gonna get busy with attachment and stuff . I think Im gonna look for part-time job and because i dont want to depend on my attachment salary . maybe a barista at coffee bean . im kinda lack of working experience . need to gain alot of working experience . so maybe im working at united square just nearby my sister's workplace and also she work as a barista at starbucks .

Hey , Im back . Hah . So how's life been doing for you guys ? How about me ? Simply fallen over heels with my korean band and group especially the boys . Its been ages that Ive last updated that is almost 1 month ago that I last updated but Im alright just full of ups and downs , I guess . Lets talk bout some other stuff , who can answer these question means they do really know me in and out .

1. What is my most favorite color ? Thats really simple questions .

2. What is my most favorite food ? Simple as always . This is just a warm up .

3. What types of guys does I like ? Its getting difficult .

4. Does Ayu have a weird taste when liking a guy ? Its either yes or no .

5. Do you think Ayu's excuse to learn how to be independent is just an excuses so that those people who surround her , will worry for her ?

6. What type of person is Ayu ?

7. Currently , does she like anyone from her campus ?

8. What's her favorite drinks ?

9. Is she choosy and fussy when it comes to food ?

10. What's her shoes size ?

Thats all for now . I'll be back .

Hey, Im back . Actually all those question is so easy .

Life is so dull these days. Dont ask me why, anyway, if Taeyang of Big Bang needs a girl. How about me? What do I need in life? Maybe I need what..Can anyone tell me about it..? Some girls got but I dont really have that at all. Its because they are pretty while Im average. I made a promise with my dad that I will be single for 5 years and this is my 3rd year of being single. I made a promise. Promise is a promise. I will make up to it. So, people around me dont worry bout me. I will not die without them. Let it be that way but that doesnt mean I will let my parents find for me but I will look by myself.

I really wish that I will get infected by hemoptysis. Coughing blood stain and people will get shocked with it and they will start to regret their mistake and this is what I say great, they deserves this. Serve you right for taking me for granted when I'm around and you doesn't know how to cherish me whenever I'm still around. I really hope that will cough blood and its bright blood right in front of your eyes and I wonder how's your reactions.

Now, all I can say that you'd better enjoy the satisfaction that I've give to you and when I have died and I hope that you will regret every minute that I've suffer when I leave under one roof w/ you inhuman people.

Best of luck, suckers!