today was a raining and windy day,
my mood was totally changed like all of sudden,
all I could say that I saw Dinni @ Cafe 1 around 12plus!

Dinni in blue jacket wearing maroon polo t-shirt.

then saw Aidil, Husaini, Ghazali and somehow his classmate

and when I walked passed them, they were talking bout his classmate

saying Jacob biscuits and when I pass them and hear them talking bout it

and I listen to them.then when I see his classmate and I told myself, he either

never come to school or he is in school and maybe im not in luck to see him

at all. and den going to cafe 1 for meeting for projects( i will skip onto seeing dinni),

den at cafe 1, I spot him with his classmate and due to not seeing him around with Aidil and the rest. When I spotted him, I wasnt being myself at all. My reaction is totally over-reacting.

Im really glad that I happen to see him. His face didnt really change that much except for his hair ,still the same. Pfft..Somehow, his hair got changed a little bit like Taemin (SHINEE).

Then queuing to pay the drinks and saw Mickey Mouse and again, went crazy for once again. Like in two combo sets, so cool. Wait, am I eating or what, why do I say it was in combo?

Pathetic, my heart color is in pink but not that black that much. Cool,isnt it? A miracle for me and Im back in the past of Dinni and I. It sounds great, isnt it?

hey boy, why am I waiting and searching for you @ school. dont tell me that Ive started to like you or what. Im not sure whether Ive started to like you or not. You broke my heart once and I dont really want to feel it that way again. Im not trying to say that its not a good idea but I just want it to be the same but my feelings for him didnt really faded that much at all.

OMG! I see Dinni again while I was waiting for my next lesson @ Business block and when I see him , I cant be myself and I cant even look @ him at all. He has that fiery eyes that makes me avoid to make an eye contact with him. The feeling is totally scary. Even when hes not that near me, I would still be afraid to make an eye contact with him, not trying to say that I cant but its just that your eyes are too fiery for me to handle but still Ive seen you thrice today and its because Im having a lesson and in the same time, your class is just beside me and remember this, I only miss ya but not starting to like you.

Dinni, even though you are in front of me but not such a near distance but still Im not that bold enough to look @ you in yours eyes and even though you doesnt really recognise me anymore and I dont really mind @ all because you've forgotten me and I had gone from your life like forever and ever, but deep in my heart felts that you're the sweetest memory have I ever had in my life.

Im not giving up a forest just because of a tree and you're the last guy that Im gonna like.

I saw Dinni again twice like 1 a week I see him !! Wah!! So happy and just in time I miss him alot and I did get blushed and no one noticed at all. Im glad that Ive seen him! Im really happy! Missing him too much this days but not that much larh. Hahaha. Well, I dont really get to see him everyday like in the past and now I only have to pinned hope and luck whether I can see him or not. Happy alooot that I get to see him and how I wish I can sing but my voice is damn awful to the max.

Hey there, remember that I miss ya aloot but not the other way round and if I were to like you again and I dont think that is possible to happen because its sinking deep inside my heart, even if theres a small chance that I might like him but it would happen because it has already sinking deep and deeper. I will only have a crush and after that its gone. I dont wish to have another heartbreak again. I dont want to pinned too much hope on him. Ending up, that me , myself getting hurt.

I cant imagined if I were to have a boy-friend that much more better than Dinni but in the same time, if you were to go home with him and etc. For me, it'll be totally awkward for me to hold with someone that is a guy. I cant imagine that. I want to slim down myself not for boys but for myself!! I want to be much different, can I?

i couldnt believe that i just did tat, tat i want to laugh so much. im such a silly girl. hahaha.

miss her alot. her smile. her kindness towards everyone.

love her alot but it seems that i cant find that smile in my soul anymore and just feels that shes gone just like that.

already gone reminds me of kelly clarkson's song. hahaha.

In Loving Memory Of this is me. Nur Hidayu /Shayu Kim

13 April 1993 - 25 July 2010

Due to Brain Tumour.

May You Rest In Peace In Heaven.

* I was jokking around and dont take it seriously and as I was being bored to death and thats why I had this idea of doing this joke and I was just fooling around.*

im not broken hearted girls and its just that i want to know whats the different between emotions and love. im kinda dumbass when it comes to a relationship and in the past, I thought Im an expert when it comes to it but not it proves me wrong. i no longer feel any love in my life and i think that im turning to heart of stone instead of heart of red color. can i still turn back time and be myself like in the past.