each time when im facing a problem death is the way out as when i died , my family and friend will then apperciate you back but they got to know once i died , i cant return back to the old time but some people at the corner will be elated that this Nur Hydayu girl has finally gone but for one thing , I can tell you that if my spirit isnt feeling assurance and i'll make sure that i'll haunt that particular person for sure .

but am i really prepared to face death that soon ?

but i really wish that i cant just collapse anytime when i have problem . but can you grant this wish of mine to a person like me and i know that you only like holiest person but not me , am i right to say that . give me a rain weather if you prefer the holiest person but not me .


thanks .




HIDUP TAK BERMAKNA UNTUK ORANG MACAM AKU .

no one wants to hear my side story first and everything im always in the fault .

you wont really get to feel how i feel when my closest friend get so nasty to me after one day spending my time with you . you are forcinng me to say something that you dont wish to hear from me that is you are a B.I.T.C.H as it has already reach my limit but being with my friend just for the sake of cigarettes , didnt you work , use that money and buy it !! thick-skinned at least , i ask money for food but not like you . CB!!

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110311 Song Ji Eun (Secret) - Going Crazy @ Music Bank (MV Part.2)

Im going crazy soon now .

Life is kinda unpredictable as my girl-friends is either in relationship or dating while Im left the only one whos single and keep slacking around with my friends thats attached . Just give me time aites , once Im attached or whatsoever , I wont disturb you people anymore but it'll take a long tine for me to be in relationship all I could say that give me time .

Today is the day that Im into Vampire Diaries and I like one of the hunks and his name is Steven R. McQueen . Simply gorgeous . Hes in the casting in Vampire Diaries as Jeremy Gilbert . Lovely and truly awesome !!

Its been ages that ive last updated bout my life .

As usual , it has been boring all day long. Nothing better things to do at all .

School is back to normal , I guess . But , I still have the fear of seeing that miget . hah. how mean . shouldnt say that and is she still remember my URL , Im so dead meat and she'll totally tease me here and there . Ooopsy , should have known to stop talking boout it as the moment she appear before me , my mood will automatically change so i'll just stop at here.

Whats the use of searching for the guy's fb when you used to like but now you no longer liking him and its such a waste of time ? really waste of time and thats what Im doing right now , and I feel annoying when I keep calling him "dier" , "dear" and also "deer" . end up , i make up a name that his name is "danial" and i guess his the kind of person that suits the name called "danial" so i guess i'll be not searching his fb as in stalking him or whatever .

By 13 April 2011, I'll make sure that Im matured enough to handle things and also my well-being. I must be mature as that's my checklist for the year .