If Im not working, in a day. I can barely post 2 to 5 post and its because im very free and maybe I'll just say everything whats going on in my life and so on but at times I will get overboard when I post everything so please dont take it to heart!

In this world, there's no such things thats called boy

and girl can be buddy forever and who knows it may

turned out as boyfriend and girlfriend.

Usual buddy are meant for boys but not girl and we

doesnt fit to that criteria at all. Girls called their girl-friends

are babes but not buddy.

You people must be wondering why I start this topic.

Frankly speaking, its because I went through all this.

I like my schoolmate and it ended up that we are buddy

and I felt very stupid.

Such an idiotic and foolish person!

Day by day, my taste seems to be changed alot.
For example, my taste of liking a person.

Now, Im gonna be unique and that is my aim at the moment is

having a unique cellphone then other teenagers that use the kind

of cellphone and I would want to have Nokia Blackberry E71.

An unique situation again. Have I started to change this much since

the day I work. The kind of phone that I wanna use has all has change
drastically.

I hope that I change for GOOD but not BAD!

Wish me luck people..

Well, I have not been updated that actively since

I was working at WildWild Wet that is Downtown East.

I can tell that Im getting tanned totally tanned.

Meet kinda alot of people and different kind of person.

I wished that I wont like my colleague and it has happen and

it was because I cant let my eyes be shut. I even cant different

between good-looking,average or even ugly. The only thing that

I can say that I have a unique taste.

Indeed, I really have a unique taste but now I does not what

kind of boy do I attracted to. Maybe someone that is good-looking,

smart, sense of humour, able to listen to my sorrow and happpiness

at all times.

Am I able to find someone that is suit to my criteria..?

Am I able to find someone like him again..?

Am I able to find someone like him..?

When will I be able to meet this person..?

Is it when I will going to leave this world

and he will be the one who send me off..?

I will not regret but I'll be satisfied to see him before my last breath..?

I will make sure that things will be completely be fine without me..

They called me Hippo and another person called me

Thirsty Hippo but Im not that petty person and not easily angry anymore.

Has become more and more straightforward person after working at there.

New changes from me. People may thought that they can influence me but I

am totally difficult to influence me if something that make me so disheartned

then maybe they can influence me but too bad they cant do that at all.

Im not that angry wif them calling me Hippo or even Thirsty Hippo just make

sure that you dont go over the limit. Thats all I can say. Dont too overboard and I will getangry and I will ignore that person totally. As for now, nothing has happen to me at work.So, people dont push your luck. That doesnt mean Im being quiet oreven anything, Iwont do anything about it and also depends who is the person.Rememeber, dont push your luck too much and thats all I can say..

I will miss everyone of you guys!!

On Saturday during work, I see him like 10 to 20 times and

I didnt expect myself to be counting how many times I see him.

I know its weird to hear and see this after I say that I'll let him go

but when I dont get to see him I'll think that hes absent from work

but then after I change my station and after my friend say that he didnt

come but the fact is that he came and its just I cant see him at my area

besides hes a lifeguard and where do I expect him to be at..

Isnt that logical enough? Dont you think so?

After I get to see him at one place and I purposely went to the place

where I can see him and I told myself that Im doing in purposely so

from there I began to smile and smile has been very wide and I'll keep grinning to

myself and I did doing that !

But, then he got whistle at me because of some work issue but he keep whistle

at me but as for this I didnt get to bother this too much but at least I can see him.

I got both advantages and disadvantages. Actually, when I see the schedule I

feel like OT but when of my feelings was gonna gone I cant decide and I finally I

wanna an OT and the reason is because I request for an OT just for the sake of

him but few minutes later, I dont feel like having an OT and its because I wanna

play at Wild Wild Wet. It seems that things doesnt go my way so I will just have to work

then. What can I say. Thanks to my foul mouth that I wanna an OT but after few minutes

later I find that my OT is quite worth it because I can get to see him.

I 'll give more updates about this. I got to go!!

Bye! Miss me and miss everyone a lot!!

Last night, I have started to listen to all the sentimental

song and its all because of him and Im well prepared for it.

Will I get another breakdown and the answer is totally YES!

Its because Im having my breakdown at this minute. I really

had enough and after this I might as well dont risk my heart ever

again maybe because Im being too lenient toward them.

Thats why Im always having this breakdown just like that

and Im always the one who will be having it not anyone but

its always be me.

Its time to let me go of him and also to make sure that I will let

him go forever and ever. I will make sure that will happen and if does

happen. Im prepared for everything..

No longer in doubts about Cat and Joe.
Its just reminds me of Ben and Mel.
Such a small world, isnt it?

Finally, Im relief wif all kinds of pressure!
Lastly, a new person has come to make my hope all go shattered!
Its gonna be over soon.

Need to ask him question by this Saturday!
Hope that Im able to control myself and never let
him suspicious that I like him.

Since he has his special someone and now its time for me to back off!
Its time to let it go forever and ever. No more turning back! Once it gone,
it will never be yours again! Never!!

Will I get another breakdown from another person ?

I know myself too well enough than anyone else that I will get a breakdown when things doesnt go my way anymore and all of it will be shattered just like that.

Will I ever risk my heart again?

Maybe yes or even no. At times, I say no but soon or later it will just be opened again by itself..

Will this come to an end?

Yes, it will come to an end when the time is ripe. Everything will be gone just like that.

Will it be gone forever?

It will be gone forever and ever. Now and forever. Soon or later, I will forget about you. Every single thing about you will just lost and I cant take it back.

How long will this last?

It will not last forever. This gonna end and soon or later, will be having a breakdown session that I will start to cry everything out..

I know that it will not last forever!

Exactly! Once its not yours, you will have to let it go. If its yours, it will return back to you.

One day, I know that my feelings will not last forever when I know something about him and soon everything is over!

Soon or later, every feelings for him will just go fade. All I can say is "ITS OVER!"

StRaIgHt To My HeArT!!


Cupid Love is shooting at me and Im madly in love wif you and Im just going with the flow!
I will try my very best to be myself when you are around me and I will try my best to control myself so that you wont know that I like you. So that you wont get to see that Im blushing like one tomatoes.

Im getting high nowdays all because of you! You made my life on last Sunday! I really begin to like you double up the feelings and I really like it and I made a silly mistake when Im working because Im thinking too much about you.

I got bruised on my both knee and I accidentally hit my forehead on the railling/railiing and it doesnt hurt that much because Im blinded wif love and the person is obviously you! Someone says that you look like Bruce Lee when you wore your shades.

Am blinded wif love and really been blinded love and you make my imagination about you really very wild,sweet and funny! Just love them and until I hit my knee when I was about to abroad the bus and it hurts for a while and after that I doesnt feel any pain at all.

You really make my life really wonderful! I like you a lot and not to the extend that I will love you! Im in love wif you and thats all I can say! Thanks for everything. I can forget everything and go to fantasy world wif you at this minutes!

Straight Through My Heart

I like you very much!!

Hidayu is in love again.
This time round, it was a Malay guy from her work.
Looks like Bruce Lee.

On Sunday, I seat just beside him and eat lunch
wif him and also some of the colleague.
He was the one who offer me to eat wif him
so I was so happy when I sees him taking his wallet
and his handphone and I can tell that

hes gonna having his lunch.

In the same time, I had my lunch too.
I ate western and a while later I didnt

realise that hes just next to me
and I turned to my right and he was there.

Isnt that incredible..?

I really like Taufiq very much but I cant

promise you that this will last longer

but I hope that this will last for at least for 4 months..

Hope that this will last longer!!