I dont understand why I cant talk to boys but I can make an eye contact with him but I dont dare to look up in their eyes that long.I will either "naikkan kening" to them and they will do the same towards me.Is it because I was hurt too much thats why He want me to rest for awhile but now I dont feel the love in my heart anymore.I just feel really empty that I couldnt feel love in my heart.Usual I will feel there's an red heart within me but not its black heart is within me, maybe I should really rest and think nothing about this.Then,from there maybe I can live more happily without boys and I think this should be the mindset,have a positive mindset throughout the year will be better, no problems and theres no need to sacrifice anything at all.So, I guess hes telling me to have a long break so that I wont feel anymore heartbreak by anyone.